Dear Waterfront Esplanade,
I really miss you a lot. It’s been months since I’ve been able to run your loop during my lunch break. The last time I ran you, I beat my own PR on August 23rd. A week before I ran Hood to Coast.
You were an excellent place to train for my Big Race. You were a fixed route with a fixed mileage and I was able to focus on my speed work. I had landmarks to gauge myself by and I knew the route by heart. The cracks in the sidewalk. The slippery (when wet) parts of the bridges. The hills. The stairs. The narrow parts that get congested.
Since my injury, I’ve been relegated to jogging short distances on the treadmill. It doesn’t feel right. It doesn’t feel like home to me. Did I mention I miss you a lot?
I’ve been avoiding the Waterfront lately because I can’t run it. I’m sorry about that. It was just too hard to see you when I couldn’t run on you.
The other day the weather was beautiful in Portland. I went for my walk (the norm now) at lunch instead of running (like before). The sun was out. The weather was warm. I put in my earphones and decided to walk the Esplanade.
Eminem’s “Lose Yourself” comes on my iPod. I’m being passed by runners left and right. As I lose myself in the song, a song that would often pump me up on my runs, I almost start to run. I almost lose myself in the moment, in the muscle memory, in the old habit of Running You and then I stop.
Sad.
I remember I’m wearing jeans and a blouse–not running gear. I remember I’m not running yet. I remember that I have to take it slow. I’m sorry I ever dreaded running you, or felt like running you was a chore. I’d give anything to be able to do it now!
As I was walking, I crossed paths with my friend Kristin. She was running and she looked great! I smiled and waved even though I was feeling sad.
I hope that someday I can run you again.
Love,
Lisa
(The rest of this was written months ago, pre-injury.)
One of the good things about running the Esplanade is that you’re pretty much stuck once you’re on the other side of the river. You have a choice of either turning around to get back, or keep going forward. Either way you can’t just decide to quit like you can on a treadmill.
The beautiful scenery also keeps me coming back. The Waterfront reminds me daily how gorgeous Portland is.
The river is beautiful, the trees lining the Esplanade are always blooming (or turning colors). Plus I can see Mt. Hood on a clear day.
Running the same route on a regular basis also means I saw the same people. I saw good runners and admired their speed and form. I saw bad runners with horrible form. I saw current coworkers and old coworkers.
QUESTION: What is something you miss right now, for any reason?
Michele @ Healthy Cultivations
First, esplanade is such a lovely word. I hadn’t even heard the word until a few years ago. It just conjures images of simpler times past.
Something I Miss: my two dogs
Becky
I miss weather warm enough to run outside and just barely sun kiss my shoulders! I’m having a very hard time convincing myself I want to go run out in the snow.
By the way–Portland looks beautiful! I need to visit there someday!
Lisa Eirene
It is pretty beautiful. Especially in Spring!
Kristina @ spabettie
you WILL run again, because you are being good to yourself NOW… I know it’s hard (boy, do I know!!) but it’s smart and necessary.
I am going through the same thing – I’m running a little here and there, and it’s getting better but the come back to being a runner is slow.
Lisa Eirene
Yes, it seems slower than it was when I first started running!
Beth @ Beth's Journey to Thin
I miss my niece and nephew, Claire and Ben.
Sara
I miss Summer! I miss daylight after work and not feeling depressed and wanting to hibernate at 7pm because it’s so dark outside it feels like 9 or 10pm. 🙁 I miss the code orange 98 degree days because at least it was sunny out and I was wearing shorts. I miss not needing a jacket and that less clothes was better. Now I feel so BLEH about the cold and needing what feels like a million articles of clothing just to go outside, hating that by the time I get home it’s pretty much dark, and that soon I’ll dread going outside at all. 🙁 I NEED MY SUMMER BACK!
ok I know I’ll survive, etc, etc. blahblahblah winter’s not that dramatic. But I’m such a summer person and I want it back dammit! 😛
Sara
Lisa Eirene
I’m with you too. I hate how dark it is now!
Lesley
Oh, I almost cried seeing those pics of Portland. I got to work in Portland back in 1995 for two months. I ran every single day on the water and then in Forest Park on the weekends. I loved it. It’s where I found my running legs. I loved running in the continuous light rain.
It’s funny…I didn’t have a mirror or a scale in my corporate apartment, so I just ran based on how I felt inside, rather than how I looked. It was nice not caring and just running. (Note to self: need to remind myself of that again).
Don’t worry…you’ll run again. I’ve started over so many times…so many times. It’s amazing how quickly you get back up to speed…pun intended.
Lisa Eirene
Thanks Leslie. I appreciate the encouragement. One of my goals this year was to run in Forest Park. I even bought trail running shoes. I guess that will have to wait!
Kathy
Lisa,
Go check out Fit Right Nortwest on Facebook; they featured this post 🙂
Take care,
Kathy
Lisa Eirene
Wow! That’s so cool. Thank you for letting me know.
Merinda
I miss the Pacific Northwest in general. I haven’t been back since 2005.
And I miss my parents and brother, haven’t seen either in 3 years.
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